Gotta kick in the darkness till it bleeds daylight! Very strange things were going on. I’ve tried to write about it just a few days ago, that’s where the title for this post came from. Now, it’s not that late, haven’t eaten since quiet a while, actually this afternoon, but I’m hungry again. Chaos always comes with everything.

Passion becomes obsession and I am obsessed with you, the pure idea of feeling you alive next to me makes

…..so it’s the third or fourth time I start writing this post, I can’t make the decision to just start a new one, so there are all this half finished lines, and now I just go on from here.  I wanna talk about differences, the difference someone can make.

How can I make her understand? How can I show her that she is different? How could she know if I treat her just like anyone else? How does she feel when all she sees is the chaos surrounding me? And I live in this chaos, wherever I go I do my best to bring it with me. How can I be with her just for a while and make her understand. What sense does it make since soon there will be the day I go. Will I see her again? How much time have we left? And I’m not talking about how much time there is, I’m talking about how much time we have left together, to actually get to know each other. I didn’t tell her, I second guessed. So, where do I go from here? Do I just do as always, go somewhere else, go further, being frank? When are they coming to pick me up?

FRANK:			(screaming) MY MY MY MY

			I'm a wild and an untamed thing
			I'm a bee with a deadly sting
			Get a hit, and your mind goes ping
			Your heart'll thump and your blood will sing
			So let the party and the sounds rock on
			Gonna shake it till the life has gone
			Rose tint my world
			Keep me safe from my trouble and pain.	

					(They all sing "We're a wild and
					an untamed thing" - right through
					twice.

					RIFF RAFF and MAGENTA enter
					dressed in extraterrestial
					national costume)

RIFF RAFF:		Frank n Furter
			It's all over
			Your mission is a failure
			Your life style's too extreme
			I'm your new commander
			You now are my prisoner
			We return to Transalvania
			Prepare the transit beam.

					(ALL freeze)

FRANK:			Wait - I can explain

					(He is left alone)

			On the day I went away

ALL:			Goodbye

FRANK:			Was all I had to say

ALL:			Now I

FRANK:			Want to come again and stay

ALL:			Oh my

FRANK:			Smile and that will mean I may

			I've seen blue skies
			Throught the tears in my eyes
			And I realise I'm going home

			Everywhere it's been the same

ALL:			Feeling

FRANK:			Like I'm outside in the rain

ALL:			Wheeling

FRANK:			Free to try and find a game

ALL:			Dealing

FRANK:			Cards for sorrow cards for pain

			I've seen blue skies
			Through the tears in my eyes
			And I realise - I'm going home
			I'm going home
			I'm going home

But I figured, I might just love life, I mean? What can I do? I love life, every bit of it, and so is it with you. Who are you? Did we ever meet? Maybe occasionally. Fuck it. It’s hard, but I have to accept every turn life can take at every moment, and well, you may agree or disagree, I’m unable to live more then just in the moment. I tried but I can’t – I CAN’T! Not anymore. Allow me to introduce myself, allow me to feel love in the moment you’re close to me.

..

But at the end things always will be different, and maybe sometimes just appear wrong. Life tricks all of us sometimes.

This was strange writing, and I just need to get it out there.. Things are changing, what is going to happen the last week her in Austin, will this city leave me sad? What will be in my heart, what can I carry with me? I’m going home. But please, don’t quote me wrong on that. I’ll take home with me, as soon as I find.

Bye bye and lots of love!

Marco